So, next step: Google search>Web Images>Topic: ‘butch women’.
22 800 results in 20 seconds, followed by related topics: UGLY WOMEN.
The world’s most utilised search engine has been programmed to regulate such prejudice and misconceptions? Is this how the world sees me? And where is the picture of kd lang?
My world is beautiful! In it, I am who I want to be. Simple. No penis envy here. No daddy issues either. I am definitely not a man trapped in a woman’s body. I experience my immediate community with my lover, family, friends and colleagues as a place of wonder, warming me from the inside out, like a favourite record that I love to listen to.
The world I live in, however, is confused by me; slapping me with negative adjectives and notions, often squeezing me in the wrong gender box. On the street, in the shop and even in the bank whilst looking at my identity document: “Good day, sir.”
I often respond: “not with these 38D boobs.” That can normally be pulled off with a polite smile and a laugh as the embarrassment sets in. Then there are other times I want to scream.
When it comes to my love life, there’s the well-you-may-as-well-be-with-a-man-if-you-want-to-be-with-that way of thinking. More difficult to deal with as it is expressed with looks, not words.
I am not alone. When I cross paths with butch strangers, off the cuff I check them out. Just how they are styled and how they bring their “butch” across. There’s usually an energy exchange, if only with our eyes. Most times a reciprocal nod. At large I find we do not speak about being and living butch beyond our inner circles. We rarely explore and celebrate how amazing we are. Damn I think most butches are too busy checking out the femmes anyway.
If you’re butch – soft, stone and everything in between and beyond I WANT TO HEAR FROM YOU, TALK TO YOU! I want to know if there is a butch community in Bonteheuwel, Benoni, Beaufort West, Bangladesh!
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